I remember the key moment of my awakening as a Priestess.
I was sitting on my couch reading The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley. I put the book down and looked out the window, so many emotions swirling up within me. I thought, ‘this book is about me!’ But I had no idea what that meant or what to do with the longing building within me.
Little did I know at the time, but this book is an activator, it was written as a call to remembrance for those who have walked as Priestess before.
And like activator books do, it found me.
I was staying in a hostel in Seattle the night before joining a weekend immersion in Leadership & Public Speaking. I wandered into the common area and looked at the books. There was this huge ratty book that caught my eye.
Above the title it read, “The magical saga of the women behind King Arthur’s throne…” I didn’t overthink it, I grabbed it and brought it home where it sat in my bookcase for over year, maybe 2.
Until the time was right and I was ready to know the Truth.
The book recounted the story of the Priestesses of Avalon and a time when the Goddess was worshipped and revered, but also when Christianity was beginning to sweep its way through the world and squash all things related to the feminine.
I cried and my heart ached. I KNEW. I could feel it…the loss of the feminine and our sacred power. The deep pull within me guided me to go wander in the forest on the mountain side each morning. I began to lay my body on the large boulders, sit on the moss and feel the whispers of the forest around me.
And funnily enough, this wasn’t unfamiliar to me…it was something I did as a child.
This longing began to be so great and so deep that I became distraught, melancholy. I wanted to go BACK…but where? Was I losing my mind? Was I just making this all up? I MISSED my temple in the forest, I missed my sisters, I missed Her. I wept for all that was lost and unexpressed. I wept for Her…what was going on??
Then in the fall of 2015 I remembered the name of a woman who did work with the Goddess. I reached out to her and we set up a call. Her name is Kalila and I burst into tears and told her of my longing to be in temple again. In her beautiful, enchanting Welsh accent she assured me, ‘Darling you are not making this up, this is real. Welcome home dear sister’.
She invited me to join her and other women awakening to the Mysteries in her home in California. I hesitated – it was a big trip and a big financial investment.
But the pull was so powerful that I couldn’t say no. I cashed in some investment money and a couple of weeks later I headed out into the unknown.
The weekend was exquisite, a coming-home, an affirmation that this is real and that I can no longer deny my truth. I needed to TRUST.
And in circle with those women, I Remembered. I am Priestess. And for me in particular I understood that I am the bridge between the seen and the unseen, the known and the unknown, between the un-manifest and the manifest, the subtle and the physical.
There was finally a context and a community to help me remember and reactivate dormant parts of my soul and further fuel my mission in this world.
I already knew I was here to work with women.
I knew that I was a gifted energy healer, that it came naturally to me and that I am here to help others.
I knew that I loved to create ceremony and rights of passage for women.
I knew that I am one who feels the world deeply.
I knew that I had a calling, a mission that was a driving force behind all of my choices, even if I didn’t yet know what it was.
I knew that I wanted to live a life fully awakened and connected to the divine.
I knew that I wanted to spark and activate that connection for others.
But I had no idea how it would all come together.
And since my first initiation on the 13 Moon Mystery Path, all of the pieces have continued to quickly and intensely fall into place.
I raised my hand and said I. And the Goddess responded.
It has not been an easy path – I have had to come face to face with all of the ugly, all that was hidden so that I could fully stand in my Truth and my Power. I have had to walk through many initiations.
But I was made for this – I am the Alchemical Priestess, one who transforms the shadows into light.
And I am here, in these times, to help birth the new consciousness on this planet, by guiding women in their own remembrance, reconfiguration, reactivation and liberation.
Together we are rising. The divine feminine is rising and we are healing the world as we heal ourselves.
If you are activated by this story – allow yourself to feel it and to respond.
You are a Wisdom-Keeper and it is time for you to remember who you are.
